So....here we at the end of day 3 in Angel Fire and I am just now sitting down....literally! Just as a reminder to all....awesome takes energy!! So far so good but oh so many moving parts. We are in a house with fifteen people (5 adults and 10 kids). It makes me realize that me and the girls are a pretty well oiled machine of three. We move quickly, quietly and with very little discussion or drama....kind of like ninjas! But we are adapting well and enjoying a great holiday!
Its NYE and the house is quiet...many are in bed already while the "girls" are up watching Pitch Perfect (a few of the boys of leering over the loft balcony watching as well but we don't want to offend their masculinity so we'll say is just the girls). I think the year will roll out with very little pomp or circumstance. I am not sure if its the energy required during the day, the fact we had a big fondue party last night, or perhaps at the core, NYE is just another day and when you are tired you are tired. I don't need to see the ball drop or drink champagne or blow into a cheap paper horn....I haven't needed that for many years but certainly don't need it this year. I am exactly where I want to be and feel exactly the way I want to feel on such a day.
Today was a perfect day on the slopes with Abby and Aidan--yesterday was a bit rough for little Aidan but she seemed to turn a corner and was awesome out on the slopes today. She was happy, cheery and one tough cookie as we had near blizzard conditions with cold wind and wet snow but she was all smiles! Abby just gets better and better on her snowboard and I have to admit I thoroughly enjoyed watching her "shred" up the mountain on her board! She was amazingly patient and encouraging with her little sister and we all had a ton of fun on the mountain. The mountain provided a torch parade and fireworks at the base that I took a group of kids down to watch. It was bitter cold but we all focused on the experience and enjoyed every bit of it---it was something to see the ski school staff and ski patrol coming down the mountain with lit torches in each hand. The fireworks were really amazing and lit up the whole sky. The whole thing lasted less than an hour but was well worth it and made for a cool experience and fun memories. We wrapped up the night with steak dinner, chocolate fountain and a white elephant gift exchange! Big fun but all are WIPED OUT!
So...here I sit and type and think. With a day like I had I could care less about midnight...its not midnight that makes the day...its the day and I had an amazing one and I'm all smiles.
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I was describing to a friend the other day....I have this sense that I have LANDED. This new life I have created and written about is feeling more and more like it "fits". As the year winds down, I look back at the beginning of the summer and had more "stuff" on my to-do list: 1) Move 2) Fix job situation and 3) Get divorced. I guess my dad did teach me to be a task master....because check, check and check! Some days I don't really feel like I've accomplished all that much but that could just be my style...I mean really, if I look at the facts on paper...I have done quite a bit. And now.....its done and I have "landed". And with each month that passes, life just returns to a state of habits and styles...just new from what I once had but life just the same. Routines and schedules have a way of returning and with them actually comes a bit of peace. Peace in our daily activities but an immense amount of peace in my heart.
It makes me laugh how systematic I really am deep down inside. Sure I try and pass off this spontaneous, fun loving impromptu gal...but really, I am my father's daughter (with a tad more pizzazz!) This year was really a mission: defined statement and objective, full (well mostly full) understanding of mission requirements and parameters (functional, operational and constraints), mission concepts and timeline, mission budgeting, and mission execution. So now I guess I would be in what you call mission evaluation. How clinical? How process oriented? Is this really my life I am talking about? What a geek!! But maybe that's just it....life is a mission: a constant cycle of these processes.
Perhaps 2013 will call for a little less evaluation, a little less stress about the planning or end results and more living. My priorities for the year are merely consistency and stability--really pretty simple. Day in and day out...do what I know is right for me and my girls. We have some fun things planned together--Abby and I are going to NYC in May and will sing at Carnegie Hall, summer trip to Lake Tahoe, return trip to Tahoe in the fall for Ironman, and much more we don't even know of yet. There are also events on their horizon that bring about a great deal of change so my job is to help prepare them for that as best I can--probable school change, their dad's wedding, and much more we don't even know of yet. ;-) I really feel ready for it all--I mean really, what can't we handle?
As for me, Just Jeanne, I have just begun to make my own mental list of what the year will or could be---right now too busy in the moment that is Angel Fire. I feel content and don't really choose to think about much more. I will upon my return to Fort Worth.....afterall, I do like having lists and goals but for now I think I'll just relax, drink a bit of Crown, watch the snow fall and smile.......because I've landed and all is fine.
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